Do you ever beat yourself up emotionally?
Even before I get out of the bed in the morning sometimes.
I wake up and “it” comes to mind. That thing I did or said – again.
“Guilty” pours over me like a film. The heaviness of being disappointed in me is almost suffocating.
Lingering in thought. Not taking it anywhere. IGNORING THE POWER OF THE CROSS.
Consuming heavy doses of guilt for past and present failings.
All the while, God’s overflowing cup of GRACE sits in front of me.
Why don’t we pick up the cup of GRACE first? Why do we choose the punching bag?
What a waste of time. Pointless Personally-inflicted Pain.
FINALLY, I stop punching, “God, I’m so sorry. Why do I keep messing up?”
Because you are weak. But I AM strong. Bring your weakness to the cross.
A tall glass of GRACE.
Holding us in the palm of His hand, God reveals our failings for us to own and bring to Him. To help us through. To love us through. To freedom.
“The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.” (Psalm 103.8-14)
Help us believe how much You love us and how thoroughly you forgive us. Help us love and forgive our children and reflect your goodness to us. Amen.